Thursday, January 13, 2011

New year, better year?

2010 was a very difficult year for me.

I got sick, and only after weeks and weeks of weird, wrong treatments ("why don't you just take these antibiotics for the next 8 weeks, it could be that one of the side effects will eventually help you" Ehm... nooo, thank you? I prefer not stuffing my body with AB if you are not even sure it helps, thanks.) I got a diagnosis.
I have an autoimmune disease, which means that I will have to take medication for the rest of my live and also that I have to find a good doctor wherever I move to but I think this is all manageable. I am just happy I feel better now.

Following the diagnosis, I had a difficult time accepting it and dealing with it. Unfortunately, that led to a fallout with some people around me.

At the same time, my grandmother got really sick. When I went to see her, I did not even recognize her at the first glance, she looked so different.

A few weeks later, my grandmother died.

(That's us at christmas 2007)

In fall, my father got very sick. He was operated, but after one week of getting worse instead of better they had to do an emergency operation (that was the first time in my life that I just grabbed my coat and purse, called for a taxi, bribed the taxi driver and jumped into the next train to my hometown without thinking, luggage, preparation, ticket... luckily the conductor asked no questions and just sold me a ticket on board without an extra fee). My father had to stay 2 more weeks at the intensive care unit, a terrible time for him. Afterwards, his treatments continued till after christmas. He is on a good way now, but oh so fragile, exhausted and tiny because he lost more than 10% of his body weight and is still not gaining it back.

Shortly before christmas, my mom, who was already totally stressed and worried about my dad, got a bad diagnosis herself, so now she is sick as well. She just started her treatment which will continue way into 2011 and she is having a very difficult time. She lost a lot of weigth as well (I will soon be the fatty of the family if this trend continues!). Of course you can imagine that we had a very different and difficult christmas this year.

I really hope both of them get well soon and get their strength back. Their favourite holiday (easter at the lake Garda, Italy) had to be cancelled due to my mother's illness :(
I'll keep my fingers crossed for their second favourite time: 2 summer weeks at the seaside in the Netherlands!

Please keep my family in your thoughts and prayers. After 2010, I think we earned the right to a more peaceful, healthy 2011, don't you think?

I can only wish all the best for you and all of your loved ones. After you have read this, go and give them an extra hug, ok?

Yours,
Lizzy

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